Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Dear Mr. Sweetie

Mr Sweetie and I met online and messaged for a couple weeks before meeting up.

Dear Mr. Sweetie,

I do have to give you props because you came up with the cutest date ideas. It was so fun to venture to cute little Monrovia among the glowing lampposts and enjoy frozen yogurt while talking into the evening. You were quite the gentleman and we laughed a lot. We had so much fun that we had to meet up on a second date for burritos and a fun lookout spot, again just talking for five hours like it was nothing and admiring the view. You were sweet and kind and complementary. To be honest, it probably wasn't fair to you. I don't think I was in a place to really seriously date someone. I was young and at the beginning of dating people and dating too many other guys at the moment. Cruel, dysfunctional, but educational. I was on a journey to learn about men and learn about myself and so I needed a lot of subjects if you will.

The thing that's hardest to think about is how you found out how I loved to swing dance and you took me to that ballroom and learned how to dance. We laughed again. Looking back, I think I will ultimately end up with someone like you. You had a lot of the character qualities I'm looking for. At the time, another guy was texting me and he was super hot. I'm shallow, I'm a terrible person and I'm sorry. I think what I said was, "there was no spark when you kissed me," but what a kiss it was in my dress and heels, clutch in hand leaning to your tall self and then our foreheads touched. Cute. Innocent. Perfect in a way. I was dumb and distracted. However, that was a big moment for me because it was the first time I was actually honest with someone when I broke it off. I usually say how busy I am or "it's me not you"... I didn't feel the spark I wanted to feel and that was honest so thank you. I have since learned that the best way to handle men is to be honest. Who would have thunk? How could it be that simple? When you make up something, men can always tell, so it always just works best if you say you're not into it if you're not into it. It was an AMAZING revelation, haha.

Sincerely,
That girl who thinks you're so sweet ;)

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